Poly lifestyle dating
Reply This is really totally gut wrench, there are moments when I just wanted to let go of life, just to stop the pain.
I even reported him but my manager thinks he can do no wrong. He has hooked up with other co workers here but they ended up leaving b/c of how much he affected their work enviornment. He knows what His children need to experience to be in His will.
Trust He knows what they need and loves them enough to provide it. I was involve with a man like I didn’t know these types of men exist till I met him.
No contact is hard and the pain can be excruciating, but we were designed for greater things. He said that I should not worry about this other woman. Something in his lack of empathy for other women and me felt put off. Narc abuse is bad enough, but throw in sexual coercion, and this adds another layer to add to recovery.
However, I can get over the majority of that the thing that makes me sick to my stomach is the knowledge of the sexual infidelity. I caught my husband signing up for a “dating” website membership (it pretty much advertised “get some sex tonight”) . It is partially sharing my story but mostly venting, getting something out that I have never told anybody, ever. Separated, but somehow still struggling to get to no contact.
Where we had both pledged to be celibate until we were married I find it on the only one that honored that pledge and because of that even though it’s hard to go no contact this is the one thing that will always and forever more keep me away from this person. After writing the below, it seems incredulous that I am still “stuck.” And even with all that I have written, it is just the tip of the iceberg in how my abusive marriage to a narcissist has played out over the last 12 years.